Princess
Love - Chapter 11
Jasmine had been quiet for the whole date with AJ, and he had noticed.
They had gone bowling, he had rented it out so no one would bother them.
"Jazz? Is there something wrong?" AJ asked as he lifted the ball and threw
it, she just sat in her seat with her arms crossed over her chest, looking
at him.
She had dark circles under her eyes and she was pale, not from the disease,
but from the lack of sleep that she was getting. She had officially
relocated to Orlando, getting a new job at Orlando General, which she loved.
She had an apartment down the street form the guy's house and she spent
most of her time either at work or with AJ. They had gone out for
a year and a half and they hadn't slept together and Jasmine never would,
she knew that. She loved this man to much to kill him like that,
it was going to be hard enough to break the news to him.
"No... I am just tired." She said, not looking him in the eye. He
walked over to her and she could see his shoes in front of her, but she
wouldn't look up at him.
"Are you sure?" He asked, looking down at her. She just nodded, she
didn't want him to see the look on her face. He got down on his knees
and lifted her head and saw that her eyes were red and she was crying.
"What is the matter?" He asked again, worried. He hoped that he hadn't
done anything wrong.
"AJ... I want to go home." Jasmine said, her lip trembling and she couldn't
hold it in anymore. She burst into tears, putting her hands on her
face and shaking her head. AJ looked at her in horror, he was shocked.
He took her hand and led her outside and they went into the car and he
drove the short distance home. AJ gently led her up to his room and
sat her on the bed and went downstairs to get some coffee.
"There is something wrong with her." AJ said as he walked downstairs.
Everyone was home and they had seen the looks on both AJ's and Jasmine's
faces. "I mean majorly wrong with her." He said and waited for the
coffee.
"What is it?" Howie asked and AJ shrugged his shoulders.
"No idea, but I have never seen anyone so... so... I don't know, she is
miserable. I hope I didn't do anything."
"No, I see the way you treat her, you two are perfect togther." Kim smiled
at AJ and he just nodded and grabbed the coffee and went back upstairs.
"I hope to be back down here soon." He said and everyone nodded.
He walked upstairs and opened the door to his room, Jasmine was sitting
on his bed, trembling. He reached over and turned the light on and
she looked up at him and shook her head.
"AJ... this is so hard." She said and she looked around the room, trying
to find some sort of insperation, but it wasn't there.
"What is so hard?" He asked, afraid to know what she was going to say.
"I have to talk to you and I just want you to be quiet and let me talk,
okay?" She asked and he nodded. He went to his desk and took his
chair and moved it so that he could sit face to face with Jasmine.
"I have never loved anyone more than I love you. It is so true, I
mean, I have never felt this way about anyone in my life. You are
smart, witty and you always make me happy. When I see your face,
even from a distance, my heart races. Sometimes I lay in my bed and
I just KNOW what you
are doing, like you
are a part of me. I feel like you own my heart and I own yours.
We belong together, I know it. I want to give birth to your children,
to make you feel better when you are sick and to make you feel like you
are the happiest man on the planet. But, it can't happen." She said,
she was shaking, trying to contain the tears as AJ watched her and he wasn't
ashamed to let the tears roll from his eyes.
"I made a stupid mistake, I just wish I could turn back time, but I can't.
I was taking care of a little boy and I took some blood and threw the needle
in the garbage, but I pricked myself. AJ, I have HIV." She said,
lowering her eyes. AJ's mouth fell open and he stood up and threw
the chair, making it hit the door, shaking the whole house.
"NO!" He screamed. "NO! Please god, no!" He cried and fell to his knees,
laying on the floor. He jumped up and looked at Jasmine and shook
his head. He ran to the door and swung it open, creating another
loud bang. He ran as fast as he could downstairs, tripping on the
last step and he almost hit the coffee table. Everyone was staring
at him and he ignored it and went into the kitchen, taking out a large
butcher knife. He looked at the smooth surface for a long moment
and tried to decide what he should do.
"AJ!" Brian screamed and ran to his friend and threw him to the floor,
AJ let go of the knife and it fell to the floor and Brian held him down,
his hand on AJ's chest, pinning him down on the floor.
"Brian... Brian..." AJ cried, staring up at his friend and Brian looked
down at him and was surprised at what he saw in his eyes. Brian could
see the hatred in his eyes, but Brian didn't know what he hated so much.
AJ looked like he was going to kill someone and Brian wasn't sure if it
was
going to be him.
AJ sat up with a start, throwing Brian to the floor with a groan.
AJ jumped up and looked at everyone and saw in the backgroad Jasmine standing
there tears could no longer leave her dry eyes. She was beyond crying.
"I got to go!" AJ said and grabbed a black leather jacket and ran to his
new motorcycle, he jumped on it, purposly forgetting to put on his helmet.
It was dark out and AJ flipped the lights on and sped to the only place
he knew that he would find some comfort.
Elizabeth was happy and settled in her new Miami oceanside cottage. She
looked threw her telephone book and she had an idea.
She had done a lot of charity work in England, why not do it here? She
wanted to throw a big concert and she began to make a long list of names
and charities that it would help. She certainly had enough money
in her bank account to make it happen... all she needed to know was who
she was going to invite...
"Emily... tell someone, anyone, to make this stop. I can't live through
this one more time, this girl was special. Not that you weren't."
AJ bended down and let his hand feel the lettering of the tombstone in
the dark.
Emily Browning had been 19 when she was diagnosed with kidney failure and
they searched everywhere for a donor, but it was hopeless. She had lived
a year and had died peacefully next to AJ. She had been his first
true love and he had been her first true love. They had always been
together and they were even thinking about getting married.
She had a rare genetic disease that ate at her kidneys and when she told
AJ he wouldn't believe it. He pretended that she wasn't going to
die, that she wasn't going to leave him. They had told each other
that they were soulmates, that they would spend their everlasting moments
together, forever.
But that didn't turn out to be the truth. Emily knew she was going
to die and she wanted to be beside AJ when it happened. AJ found
her next to him and he cried, but he knew it was going to happen, deep
down inside of him. He found a note that she had written and he saved
it and read it whenever he felt like he was going to give up on something.
The note said to never give up and that one day he would fall in love with
someone again, maybe even more than he did with Emily. When he first
read it he hadn't believed it, but now he did. Jasmine was going
to be his wife and the mother of his children, that he knew.
"I almost did it Em. I almost killed myself. I want to be with you
and I want to be with Jasmine when she leaves me and I thought that that
was the only way I could do it. I was going to ask her to marry me,
I have the ring." He cried and took it out, looking at the beautifully
cut diamond. "I won't marry and I won't fall in love again.
I can't, it hurts to much. Why won't god just put me out of my misery?"
He cried and layed on the stone, tears falling on Emily's name.
"Don't. I never meant for this to happen, I don't want you to give
up, you will love again." He heard a voice say behind him and he rolled
on his back and looked up at Jasmine. It was dark out and her slender
figure was beautiful against the background of the sky that was full of
stars. She was wearing a white dress and AJ looked up at her and
stared, she looked like an angel.
"I love you so much." He cried and stood up and held her in his arms over
the tombstone of the other girl that he had lost a short time ago.